Aira's 1st Birthday , Anniversary, New House, Holiday To PD and Surgical Posting!

Salam blog, 

Ambik kau punya la panjang tajuk blog. Nampak beno dah lama tak update. Busy weyhh. Busy ngan kerja, ngan aira, and busy pindah umah!

Yess, kitrg satu family dah pindah umah sendiri. Alhamdulillah. Sebenarnye dari taun lepas kitrg beli rumah ni, tapi dekat akhir taun baru betul2 siap and siap kelengkapan tuk pindah. Alhamdullillah walaupon banyak kena guna duit tuk beli barang2 umah, tapi berbaloi sebab bessstt sangat duk umah sendiri. Yela, leh manage umah ikut cita rasa sendiri and lebih privacy. Tapi barang byk xde lagi. Banyak keperluan asas jek. Xpela kitrg kumpul duit skit2 bli barang.hihi.

 Time ni tengah nak pasang langsir umah. Langsir ruang tamu pink okeyh.kata umah sendiri, ikut cita rasa sendiri la.hikhik

Proses membersihkan rumah! Hihi

Actually kredit tu my hubby sebab banyak berusaha for this house. Dia la bli brg lampu kipas tile sme benda la. dia la semangat bersihkan umah. Sme banyak dia buat. Thanks hubby.lebiu.hehe..

Ok talking bout aira, hurm where to start. Aira dah setaun dahhh. Alhamdullillah..skrg dh leh jalan smbil pimpin tangan dah.comel ngat. Kadang2 kalau dia xsdar, leh jln 2-3 steps.pastu tunduk sebab takut.hehe. Erm still xleh cakappp.tp ske membebel.banyak mulut actually tapi xde sebut betul2 words tu. huhu. Owh aira ada msalah berat kurangg. Stress dah mama sal berat awak ni. Asyik borderline jekk. Tatau la nk wat cemana lgi. Dia makan jek bubur sme tp cm xbanyak.haihh..ntah la..yang penting dia active and sihat. Baru ni ingt nk wat majlis naik umah skali ngn sambut birthday aira, tp skrg tgh musim hujan lak. So mcm tak sesuai. So nk tunggu dlu bila masa yang sesuai leh buat.huhu.

Last week kitrg g pd. saja jalan2 sebab saya cuti end of posting. G PD sehari, g kl sehari. Huhu. Tapi kesian aira sebab demam. Balik jalan pon demam. 

Kat PD kitrg stay kat Selesa Beach Resort.ok la resort tu. kuar hotel trus masuk pantai.hihi. Best ngat leh bawak aira main pantai ngn air laut. Comel ngat bila teringat aira buat muka pelik main pasir.pastu terminum air laut.hihi.

Aira enjoying the sea.hikhik.

Kesian ngat time ni dia demam actually..huhu

Owh sekarang sy kat posting baru. Posting surgery .tak best gila ok. Penat tagging. Haihhh.. Ni dh 5 th posting. Huhu. Last posting nanti ED. then abh ho!!! Weeee! Cant wait tapi takut nk jadi mo. rasa cam tatau apa jekkk.. Haihh..

Alhamdulillah aritu genap 2 tahun kitrg kawen..xsangka cpat masa berlalu..rs cam rindu nk kawen lg.hikhik..aritu hubby buat suprise. Ada ke dia gtau nak kuar kejap pastu smpai ke ptg xbalik2 . Sy cal xangkat.masa tu dh risau gila2 dah. Pastu blik petang tu, dia tbe2 suh tutup mata sambil pimpin sy naik tingkat atas. Rupanye dia dh decorate kad ngn bunga tabur2 lg. hehe. Rupanya lama menghilang sebab duk buat kad! Huu..thank you hunny busuk. Dah lama xdpt suprise cmni.hihi. 

Ni kad.. Dalam tu ada siap tampal2 lg gambar kitrg sme.hihi

Thanks hubby..mmuacckkxxx!!

Okla thats all for now. Nak balik umah dh ni. Still tengah tagging surgery balik kul 10 mlm.huuu.

Our 1st Anniversary

Alhamdulillah dah setahun berkahwin. Cepatnya masa berlalu. Rasa macam semalam baru duk sibuk nervous nak nikah bagai, tup2 now dah setahun kawen.hehe. 

Now tengah tunggu masa plak untuk our baby lahir kat dunia ni. Uish my life has change dalam masa setahun jek. Last year tengah berenjoy2 ngn kwn2, but now dah jadi isteri org, siap nak jadi mak org tak lama lagi.haha.

Anyway tak de celebration apa sangat. Kitrg celebrate anniversary kat kl sambil tengah cari barang baby. Haha. Yup now our priority is our baby. G kl sampai sakit2 pinggang. Haha. Aritu kitrg beli carseat plak. Yey dah ada carseat for the baby. Next survey stroller plak.hihi.

Ok la , happy anniversary to us! Hehe. Love you hubby till infinity. No words can describe how much i love you and how much i appreciate having you in my life. My world is complete with u in my life. Mmuackkkxxx!!

Babymoon

Assalamualaikum!

Weekend lepas saya mintak cuti 2 ari. Memang plan nak pergi berjalan pon. Konon sebab dah busan dengan working life. Nasib baik dapat cuti. Awal2 planning nk g PD, nak tido kat Grand Lexis. Alaa hotel yang ada swimming pool dalam bilik tu. tapi mama tak kasi plak pergi jauh2 sebab cuti kejap sangat. Dia takut nanti penat. Last2 pergi kuantan jek. Haha. Tapi dah bagitau hubby siap2 nak duk resort.hihi. Saje gedik nk merasa duk kat resort plak. So kitrg duk kat La Village resort. Ok la bilik dia and tepi pantai.rate pon xde la mahal sangat.

So kitrg bertolak malam khamis tu.malam tu bermalam di hotel ms garden dulu. Then next day baru tido kat La Village.
Kat kuantan kitrg just jalan2 kat mall jek and tengok wayang. Tapi sempat jugakla survey katil baby. Hihi. Nazmi nak survey katil baby tuk letak dalam bilik dia. Kitrg plan nak beli playpen tuk bilik nazmi sebab kalau nak beli baby cot betul besar plak. But for my room, saya memang nak beli baby cor warna putih. Hihi. So kitrg survey kat kedai anakku. Adala jumpa tyg berkenan tapi harga mahal skit sebab kualiti lain. Lama gak kitrg duk survey tapi xdela beli trus. The next day baru la nazmi beli selepas lama berfikir. Haha.

Petang tu kitrg check in kat resort then terus pegi pantai. Tak lama sampai kat pantai tu hujan lebat plak. Last2 kitrg lepak kat kedai tepi pantai tu. ramai lak mat salleh lepak skali kat situ. Huhu.

Malam tu lak nazmi ajak makan ikan bakar kat tanjung lumpur. Bestla gak. Kitrg makan sotong celup tepung, udang bakar ngan ikan siakap stim.hehe.

The next day, awal2 subuh lagi saya dah terjaga. Nazmi cakap nak tengok sunrise.. Hehe. Tapi kitrg terlambat skit sebab matahari dah naik skit. Tapi camna pon still cantik pemandangan tepi pantai. Hihi.

1st Raya Aidilfitri As Married Couple

Salam semua,

Sekarang sy still in mood raya walaupon dh raya ke8. Maklum la raya kan sebulan. Alhamdulillah raya tahun ni paling bermakna sebab dapat sambut dengan hubby tercinta and family. Walaupon saya kerja mlm sebelum raya, balik kerja pon pagi raya sampai umah kul 8 pagi..tapi paling penting dapat off day raya 1st. So dapat la merasa beraya dengan suami for the 1 st time. Hihi.

Pagi raya tu dalam keadaan mamai2 blik kerja, sy bersiap cepat2 tuk pergi sembahyang raya dengan nazmi. Alhamdulillah 1st time sembahyang raya ngan suami. Sampai tersengguk2 la saya dalam masjid tu sambil dengar takbir raya. Haha. Then blik rumah, kitrng bersalam2an ngan my FIL.pastu kitrg gerak pergi beraya umah nenek and sedara nazmi. Rasa lain pulak, new experience. Biasanya tiap tahun beraya ngn my family kat rumah tok, kali ni beraya with his family. Hehe.

Then dalam tengahri camtu, me and nazmi gerak ke dungun tuk beraya with my family lak. Seronok tahun ni sebab dapat beraya with both family and family in law.

2nd syawal plak umah nazmi buat open house. Memang stiap tahun raya kedua diorg mmg akan buat open house. Meriah tul. Tapi mlm tu sy kerja mlm. So agak penatla sbb siang duk tlg buat open house, malam lak kerja..

3rd syawal, open house umah saya plak. Hihi. Best sebab ramai sedara mara datang. Nadiot pon dtg gak. Hihi. Tapi tataula napa raya tahun ni rasa paling tak puas. Macam kejap gila raya. Tup tup dah raya ke 8 la. Dah kena kerja balik dah. Huhu. Sedih.

Nazmi ckp raya tahun ni kitrng raya berdua. Tahun depan dah raya bertiga lak. Hehe. Harap2 tahun depan dapat la off lagi. Susah sebenarnya nk off bila kerja hosp ni. Huhu.

Gambar mula dari atas tu, Ni gambar time beraya umah tok. Hihi
Next day, 2 nd syawal. Sesi bergambar with FIL
Then with nadiot msa open house my house

London 2013

Happy 3 rd monthversarry!

Dah 3 bulan dah kawen! Weee.. Ni gambar masing2 kepenatan baru balik kerja tengah malam tadi. I think my feet pon dah bengkak ni. Sobs. Sakit gila kaki sebab berdiri lama sangat dalam ward. Hukkk.. Nazmi lak penat mental sbb kena handle ubat2. Kesian. Hihi.

1 monthversary ❤

Oh my 1 month already since saya jadi isteri kepada nazmi. No words can describe my feelings other than i love him more and more each day. May this marriage last till jannah. Ameen. 💗

Perfect date

Siapa cakap after kahwin pasangan kita akan berubah? Yg kita akan kenal sapa sebenarnye our partner after dah kahwin? Dulu sy ingat lagi my autie selalu pesan, kata nya mmg la time couple semua org baik, sweet, nanti pas dah kahwin baru tunjuk belang sebenar. But now after dah kahwin, nothing change. Tak de pon bende yang membuatkan sy jd menyesal kahwin. Rasa menyesal tak kahwin awal2 adalaa. Hihi.Nazmi is still the same guy i date for the past 7 years. Takde bende yg berubah. Malah dia jadi semakin sweet adala. Alhamdullillah bahagia sangat now.

Malam tadi kitrg kuar dinner date kat luar. Bosan asyik makan kat rumah . So dia ajak pegi dinner kat riyaz hotel. Cantik gak tempat tu. Sy xpnah tau pon dalam hotel tu ada restoren. Pemandangan pon cantik. Nampak bandar trg dari seberang pulau and cahaya warna warni from the ict.

Sy order chicken chop. Terasa nak makan western. Nazmi lak order nasi goreng ngn tomyam. Tak puas2 makan tomyam tau dia ni. Suasana tempat tu sunyi sebab tak ramai pon org dtg. Meybe sbb agak expe sive jugak harga makanan situ. Tadi total makanan kitrg dlm 70rm gak. Huhu.

Then after makan, kitrg jln2 kat kwasan tepi laut tu. Sunyi sgt sbb xde org pon kat situ. Just nampak cahaya cantik bandar trg dri seberang laut tu.

Jealousy, is it good or bad?

do u often get jealous when somebody talks to your partner, or joking around with him?
is it because you love them that u get jealous? or is it because you dont trust them and feel insecure?

i know guys tend to feel anoyed kalau kita asyik nak jealous memanjang. but why?because they will interpret our jealousy as not trusting them! but i guess its true, we feel jealous sbb kita takut our partner 'tersuka' orang lain, or 'terselesa' berkawan dengan org lain which eventually terjadi la kisah kayu 3,4,5..etc.. tapi why must this feelings ada in the first place?

for me, i do get jealous sometimes, like once in a while. but then, slowly those feelings menghilang, sebab ape? because i trust him so much! and i know him to the core, and i know he wouldn't do things to hurt me. for example, ada org nak berkenalan with him. first thing he did was, he will tell me yg ada org nk menggedik with him.haha. yes, he is that jujur. and second thing, i knoww that nazmi will not layan that girl, why?because i trust him. simple as that. no explanation needed. then how do you think we survived this long distance relationship for years if its not because of trust?

besides, nazmi is not like those guys yang bila ada gf jauh2, berlagak macam single. bila org tanya dah ada gf?mengaku tak de so that saham tak jatuh.(pfft..ckup annoying lelaki macam tu)..no, he is not like that. even masa dekat kolej pon, all of his classmates tahu the gf is in india. lagi satu, kenapa sy nk jealous?? amboi nak perasan my bf ni hensem sgt ke? di gilai ramai ke sampai nak rasa jealous bagai?haha..

but sometimes, i cant help it. that jealous feelings tetap ada kadang2. but its not because i dont trust him, nooo..its just that i dont like it if perempuan lain menggedik2 with him. biarla sy sorng jek yang dia layan, jangan nak mengada layan perempuan lain. bukan tak percaya kan dia, just tak suka. thats it! so guys need to understand this. we cant control our feelings, its not like we ask for being like this. guys must understand that girls are sensitive human being. especially if it involves the person that we love most.( and also especially if time pms, goshh..buat salah skit mmg silap la. terus semua perasaan tak best timbul).

so yeah, my point is girls must stop being unnecessarily jealous towards your partner, and men also should stop doing things yg boleh menimbulkan jealous seperti melayan perempuan lain. ape, tak penat ke layan sorang perempuan,ni nak layan banyak2 perempuan lagi kan?hehe..

thats all my mumble rumble this morning. til then,bye.

Meet My Cutie Pies!

Say hello to my cutie pies! hihihi ok no,i lied. only one of them is mine,

guess which one?;p

cant wait to have my own ..... (eh?)

me : tgh wat ape

him : tgh buat susu for baby

me: tgh buat ape

him : baru lepas mandi kan baby

me: tgh buat ape

him : tgh tgkkan baby sbb baby nangis

LOL!

The Best Feeling Ever Is

having someone to talk to when you are down..

knowing someone loves you and misses you..

having to wake up from a deep sleep, knowing there's someone out there is dreaming about you..

knowing someone is thinking about you and you are thinking about him too..

not having to pretend in front of each other..

feeling safe because you know he will always be there for you..

knowing you can trust each other..

knowing you want to be a better person for him..

the best feeling ever is LOVE.

Happy New Year! (its never too late to wish.;p)

Happy new year! at last its 2012!

so my first entry for this year wud be this video.

it was taken at my hometown.

the weather that day was clear and windy,

so nazmi and i decided to take a stroll along the beach.tehee.

you, me, and our future.

talking about future scares me. i am freaking out. i dont know what the future holds for us. yes, i am going to get married one day, with him. but then, after that?

how about having kids?nope, im not ready yet. i cant imagine myself having kids. first of all, i dont know if i can go through the hardship and pain enduring delivery process. silly me for talking about this, but u cant blame me for having the trauma, after being posted in OBG department few times. i am not joking, i am scared.:-/.. and, am i capable to raise a child? dang...im a child myself. i will cry if i dont get what i want. in fact, i just cried yesterday talking to my parents coz they wont allow me to go back to malaysia. see...T.T

how about work? yes im going to grad, with God's willing, end of next year. and i am going to finish my housemanship MAYBE at hbnz (hospital besar nur zahirah) along with nazmi. btw, nazmi has started his job in the same hospital. houseman ship for 2 years, then MO,and after that?

last night, nazmi and i were talking about the future. and we end up with argumentssss. well, not arguments as in raising voice or what so ever. but, there are few things we could not agreed with each other.

for example, nazmi planned nak bukak business. ok fine, itu mmg his planning dari dlu lagi and i am ok with it. pegila buka businesss, tapi nazmi bagitau kalau one of us nak keluar government, then salah sorang kena stay in government. and in my case, if dia yg plan nak bukak business, its me la yg kena stay in government. but the thing is, i have my own planning. i want to open my own private clinic, insyaAllah. so camna now? ok la fine, my planning to mmg la sekadar impian semata jek, and nazmi plak mmg dah betul2 planning nak bukak biz, so sy la yg kena berkorban and stay jek in government. ok fine, i dont mind that.

but then, comes another problem. he told me, i need to do specialist. huaa...sobs...i dont feel like doing any specialist dah in future. i dont feel like pursuing study anymore. cukup2 la penat and kemalasan study now,tak boleh ke just jadi doctor biasa? yes i know, silly me sbab apa yang nazmi suruh tu for my own good,dia cakap takkan sy nak kerja teruk2 jd MO jek, at least buat specialist tu tak de la kerja teruk sgt, yeke? but..sigh...tak nak tak nak tak nak.....hukkkk...and he is serious about it! and i am being stubborn, i noe thattt.wekx.

so i said, ok fine kalau nak suh wat specialist, nak buat kat overseas jugak. UK ke, Aussie ke, mana2 la. and i told nazmi to come along with me,tapi nazmi pulak ckp, kalau wat kat sana, dia nak buat apa?dh la dia nak bukak biz..huuu..aduyai..masalah lagi..so now kena tukar planning, KALAU nk buat specialist, sy kena pilih local U jek. and my impian nak g UK study sana??nampaknya terkubur je la impian tu. nazmi cakap kalau sy nak sgt pgi UK, xpela, dia promise nnti dia bawak pegi jalan2 sana kalau ada rezeki. hey u better keep your promise ok??!!hukk...sedih..

haih...

sebenarnya susah nya nak planning future. lebih2 lagi kalau planning future keluarga cmni. and we did talked like a married couple.;p. dia ckp skrg apa2 planning dia, dia kena fikir pasal me. thats why sme yg dia ckp tu, sme untuk kebaikan kitrng.huhuhu...orang lain macam ni tak? any married couple out there yg ada masalah camni tak?haha..or it is just me yang being selfish and stubborn now?huuuuu

p/s - but today,after pikir2 balik apa yang kitrng borak smlm, sy sedar sme yg dia ckp tu tuk kebaikan kami. meybe smlm was just a bad day and bad timing for him to bring up the subject, after me being devastated sbb my parents tak kasi balik mesia. huhu. ;p..tapi apa yg kitrng borakkan smlm is something big, and i need to think carefully about it.

p/s/s- tiba2 takut nak kawen. gosh, nanti in future mesti lagi banyak masalah akan datang. mampu kah sy menghadapi sme ni?wakaka. but serious ly, married life is not something simple. there's lot more responsibilities and problems and are we matured enough to handle that together?

p/s/s/s- one sentence i remembered him saying it last night, after all the arguments and me being stubborn..' walau apa pon terjadi, susah cmna pon hidup kita akan dtg, org nak awak ingt yg org akan sentiasa ada dgn awak'..thanks awak..;-(

wednesday again!

now now, this time im not gonna post photos for wordless wednesday again.

today i wanna post a video which i had come across on youtube.

watch it first and think. in which stage are you?

man, this video is so deep.

i dont want to go thru all stages.

let us just stay in stage 3 please?promise?

;-)

till death do us part

sweetest picture!

jom?;p

the special project

hello people.;D

i wanna tell u bout something special i have been working out since months. being me, creativity is so out of the questions. but i wanna do something special for nazmi, its for his birthday actually. dah lepas lama dah pon, bulan 6 aritu, but still..hehe..sebenarnye dah busan asyik bagi barang jek for birthday, so why not buat something like this. it is more meaningful i guess.

its a scrapbook! my first ever scrapbook,with lots of photos!! semua gambar2 dari zaman muda sampai la gambar latest kami berjumpa masa sy blik malaysia last march. pendek kata kalau sesapa baca scrapbook ni, they will know our stories right from the beginning.lol.

so this is it!

the photos collection. penat bukak balik file2 lama dr zaman muda2 nak cari balik sme gambar2 kitrng. fuhh...

cut n paste, cut n paste, wekk penat!lol..tapi skeee!!

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and the result, tadaa!

akhirnya siap. tunggu nak bagi jek bila balik raya nanti.( yess people, im going back for raya this year.wehoooooo!) lama tau nk buat ni. harap2 he will appreciate it.kalau dia tak ske, nangis lebat2..sobs..

do you think he will love it??

what men should know

true enough.

sekarang tengah merajuk mode. 2 days without any news is more than the limit. xde message, xde ym, senyap sepi jek. heh. nak marah, tapi tatau sampai bila bertahan rasa marah tu. nanti at the end of the day, sy jugak yg rindu. kahkah!booooo...

being too cheesy? sorry.

''Dear

We r getting married xlame dah

If u have probs plis do let me help u my dear

Awk da spenuhnye ada dlm dr org

Org hepi sgt2 klu kta dpt solve any prob same2''

;-).thanks for making me feel better.ilyusm.

:-(

i . miss. this. guy. sooooooooo much.

*sambil nyanyi lagu i will always love you - whitney houston*

eh macam tak kena plak lagu tu. lagu sedih tu.

anyway my point is i miss him soooo muchhhhh!

:-(

heart shaped potato

Find someone who isn't afraid to admit they miss u,

someone who knows that you're not perfect,

but treats you as if you are,

Someone whose biggest fear is losing you,

One who gives their heart completely,

Someone who says i love you and means it,

Someone you wouldnt mind waking up with you in the morning,

seeing your wrinkles and your gray hair,

but still falls in love with you all over again

Someone who'll never get tired of kissing you everyday,

who'll hug you when you're jealous,

who'll keep silent when you're mad,

who'll squeeze your hand when you're not in the mood,

who'll plan and imagine the future with you in it.

p/s- throughout life, you will meet 1 person who is unlike any other. you could talk to this person for hours and never get bored, you could tell them things and they won't judge you. This person is your soul mate, your best friend. don't ever let them go.

p/p/s - thank you for staying even if you had every reason to leave.<3

p/p/p/s - the love shaped potato was found by me. im so amazed!!lol