1st Raya Aidilfitri As Married Couple

Salam semua,

Sekarang sy still in mood raya walaupon dh raya ke8. Maklum la raya kan sebulan. Alhamdulillah raya tahun ni paling bermakna sebab dapat sambut dengan hubby tercinta and family. Walaupon saya kerja mlm sebelum raya, balik kerja pon pagi raya sampai umah kul 8 pagi..tapi paling penting dapat off day raya 1st. So dapat la merasa beraya dengan suami for the 1 st time. Hihi.

Pagi raya tu dalam keadaan mamai2 blik kerja, sy bersiap cepat2 tuk pergi sembahyang raya dengan nazmi. Alhamdulillah 1st time sembahyang raya ngan suami. Sampai tersengguk2 la saya dalam masjid tu sambil dengar takbir raya. Haha. Then blik rumah, kitrng bersalam2an ngan my FIL.pastu kitrg gerak pergi beraya umah nenek and sedara nazmi. Rasa lain pulak, new experience. Biasanya tiap tahun beraya ngn my family kat rumah tok, kali ni beraya with his family. Hehe.

Then dalam tengahri camtu, me and nazmi gerak ke dungun tuk beraya with my family lak. Seronok tahun ni sebab dapat beraya with both family and family in law.

2nd syawal plak umah nazmi buat open house. Memang stiap tahun raya kedua diorg mmg akan buat open house. Meriah tul. Tapi mlm tu sy kerja mlm. So agak penatla sbb siang duk tlg buat open house, malam lak kerja..

3rd syawal, open house umah saya plak. Hihi. Best sebab ramai sedara mara datang. Nadiot pon dtg gak. Hihi. Tapi tataula napa raya tahun ni rasa paling tak puas. Macam kejap gila raya. Tup tup dah raya ke 8 la. Dah kena kerja balik dah. Huhu. Sedih.

Nazmi ckp raya tahun ni kitrng raya berdua. Tahun depan dah raya bertiga lak. Hehe. Harap2 tahun depan dapat la off lagi. Susah sebenarnya nk off bila kerja hosp ni. Huhu.

Gambar mula dari atas tu, Ni gambar time beraya umah tok. Hihi
Next day, 2 nd syawal. Sesi bergambar with FIL
Then with nadiot msa open house my house

Life Update 101

Hello bloggg!

Lamanye sy tak tulis dalam blog ni. Tak de masa sebab busy kerja padahal banyak sangat benda nak di update.

Sekarang dah masuk hari ke 5 puasa.alhamdulillah tahun ni dapat berpuasa di malaysia and tahun ni dengan suami.hihi. Tapi sebab kerja, sy banyak berbuka puasa kat hospital since kerja abih kul 8.sedih tul.

Update pasal kerja, well i wont say i like working. Not at all.huhu. Tak tipu. Setiap hari bila kena pergi kerja rasa cam stress semacam jek. Haih. Ok xmo cerita pasal kerja dah.

Sebenarnye tujuan post ni nak update about my life. Currently sy tengah mengalami perubahan hidup. Hahaha. Well, im pregnant! Weee.macam tak percaya jek nak gtau people that im pregnant. Nak tau tak masa mula2 nak confirm pregnant tu, sy buat pregnancy test sampai 3 kali sebab xpercaya.hihi. One of the reason napa sy tak percaya sy pregnant sebab sy xde alahan langsung! Yup tak tipu. Even until now xde rasa nak muntah or apa2 alahan cam org pregnant lain. An easy pregnancy for me.alhamdulillah sgt. Sebab kalau alahan teruk tatau la macam mana nak kerja.

Ok back to cerita, so sy buat pregnancy test 3 kali and sme positive. My hubby dah overjoyed dah that time. Tapi sy still rasa tak puas hati so the next day trus ajak hubby g check up. Bila scan, doctor cakap dah 8 weeks.hihi. Rsa macam miracle bila tengok ada something livinv in my tummu. Im so happy. So excited. Xsabar nak tunggu baby ni lahir. Currently im at 14th week of pregnancy. Salah satu benda yg lain skit time pregnant ni just sy cepat lapar. And bila lapar tu rasa cam lapar gila. Thats why bulan puasa ni wuite challenging gak. Tp sy pasti kan sy bersahur setiap hari tuk tahan lapar. Alhamdulillah setakat ni xde la rasa teruk sgt.

Haritu, sy and hubby pegi mesra mall and kitrg nak shopping baju baby for the 1st time. Hehe. Tapi sebab tatau gender lagi so kitrg beli warna putih jek sme. Eee xsabar rasanye nak shopping barang2 baby lagi.nak beli stroller, car seat, baby coat, and macam2 lagi. Cant wait!hehe.

Ni gambar scan at 7 weeks and 11 weeks. Jauh berbeza kan even tho beza masa 4 weeks jek. Masa scan tuk 11 weeks tu, me and hubby nampak baby gerak2. Aktif sangat dia . Comel sgt. Hihi. Ok i still cant believe somthing alive ada inside my
tummy ni.:p

1st Day In Charged Of The Ward

Huru hara i tell youuuu!
Dah la tengah aktif ward ( meaning sme admission masuk our ward. Kalau pasif, no new admission) . N dah la hari ahad! Memang dah agak dah confirm busy tapi tak sangka la sebusy tdi. Ni dah tengah malam baru leh balik. Konon dah abh tagging ingat kan leh balik awal, berangan jek la. Minum pon belum lagi ni. Apa tah lagi makan. Huhu.Banyak gila kerja tertangguh. Nak kena clerk new case lagi, nak kena order ubat lagi, nak kena buat investigation lagi, nak kena buat refer lagi huaaaa....pengsan.

Tadi first time saya tolong resuscitate this one patient ni. Penat nak mampus. Tapi that patient passed away. Huhu.

Anyway, tak mo cakap sal kerja dah. Just want to inform that tomorrow saya cutiii. Cuti lamaaa sgt sebab nak g jln2 ngnn nazmi and his family. Kitrg pegi london. Hihi. Xsabar! Omai sekarang baru nak rasa excited, kalau tak before this sangat busy sampai xde perasaan nak g berjalan2. Ni baru terasa excited. Nanti lepas abis cuti i wanna start fresh! Nak pegi kerja dengan azam baru! Hahaa. Ok la bye!

Day Trip To Kota Bharu, Kelantan

Last weekend me and my family pergi ke kota bharu to get the doorgift for my wedding. Kitrg beli doorgift tu di shah alam tapi kilang doorgift tu ada kat kelantan. So we decided to take the doorgift ourselves since dekat. Kul 8 pagi dah bertolak dari rumah. Awal gila.=.=.

Sampai di tempat kilang tu dalam pukul 12. My first thought masa sampai tempat tu 'eh ni kilang ke rumah'. Haha. Sebab tak macam kilang pon actually. Punyala expectation ingat kan kilang besar. Lol.

Then after solat jumaat singgah di kk colection and i bought few accessories for my room. Wee ske ske! Rabun mata tengok semua barang, macam nak bli jek segala benda. Tujuan asal pegi kedai tu sebab nak beli almari for my room. Since almari kat situ semua warna putih and suit tema my room, i thought nak beli satu tuk bilik. Then tak jadi sebab almari yang sy nak tu xde stok baru. Wuwuwu.

These are few pics of the kilang and barang yg dibeli kat kk colection.hehe.

2012 Wrap Up and Happy New Year!

Okeyh sangat lama tak tulis blog. Last post was august last year! Haha. Sebenarnya too many things happened and too many things to tell that i end up not writing anything. Sekarang baru terbukak hati nak bukak balik this blog.

So arini dah new year 2013. Dah habis dah tahun 2012. Tahun 2012 ada banyak benda berlaku in my in my life. Too many life changing event happened. Salah satunya ialah status diriku dah bertukar. Yup, saya dah selamat bernikah dgn nazmi pada 20.12.2012. Alhamdulllah. Bahagia sangat now. Thats all i can say.

Other than that the highlight in my life is i passed my mbbs final exam. Now i am officialy a doctor. Doctor yg tak praktis lagi. Hihi. Now tgh melepak kat rumah sambil tunggu masuk kerja. Huhu.

Ok tu jela nk update. Gila malas punya post. Hakhak! Like i said byk benda nk bgtau last2 tak reti nak cerita. :p

Dreams Do Come True

i can still remember about 2 years ago, me and nazmi were discussing our wedding date. yup, awal gila bincang bila nak kawen, macam bunyi tak sabar giteww. that time we decided nak kawen on 20.12.2012.
konon2 nak tarikh cantik for our wedding. time tu dahla tengah jelus org ramai kawen tarikh 20.10.2010, so kami pon buat keputusan nak kawen on the 20th dec 2012.

but why december? you see, month of december is quite special for me. first, because my birth date is in december, same with my brother, dia pon lahir december so we always end up celebrating it together. second, my parent's anniversary pon in december. so yeah, too many events in december yang membuatkan december is my favorite month! thats why i want my wedding date in december so bad.;p

but that time, talking about wedding was only mere dream. memang tak expect pon nak kawen around that time. yela, belajar pon lambat lagi nak habis (i was in 3rd year that time), duk fikir pasal kawen plak and kalau ikut contract belajar, tak abis final exam lagi masa tu. lagipon sy pk macam tak possible jek nak kawen bulan 12 sebab kat east cost tengah musim tengkujuh bulan 12.but deep down, i always wish for it to come true.

then, last year, me and nazmi got engaged on the 1st sept 2011. yeay, one step closer. and after that, suddenly our mbbs contract ditukar from 5 1/2 years, jadi 5 tahun saje. meaning by the end of october 2012, if i pass my final mbbs exams, sy dah boleh balik mesia for good. that time i was so happy sebab my wish to get married on december might be possible.

but came along few problems afterwards. first, masalah siblings. problem nya sebab adik2 yang blajar oversea tak sama cuti. ajat punya holiday is between december till february. so tak de masalah sgt. tapi adik2 nazmi, 2 org di mesir. and masing2 boleh cuti bulan february jek. so after few times discussing, our parents decided to do our wedding in february 2013. i was so sad actually. see, in feb 2013, i might have started my HO, so of course la time tu dah busy kerje. bila masa plak nak kwen? and kawen in 2013 sangat la tak best. i just hate the number 2013, and my age pon dah 26 by that time. my dream was to get married before 26 okeyhh.haha. so yeah, sedih sgt..tapi dah pasrah dah, terima jela kan keputusan org tua.

selepas dh pasrah and dh register in my mind yg i will get married in february 2013, tiba2 my parents bg kejutan plak. they decided to change the nikah day on the 20th dec 2012 (as i wish for.;p) . you see, my parents knew all along that i want my wedding in december, tapi diorg tak agree sbb memikirkan adik2 nazmi cuti in february, and diorg tak nak buat majlis kawen masa musim tengkujuh. so they know i was so sad. but then after a while, they decided to change the nikah day for me. hehe. so yess people,  my nikah day will be in december,however the reception is still in february so sempat semua adik beradik berkumpul and harap2 time tu dah habis musim tengkujuh. so yey!!

so here i want to announce my nikah day is in 20th december 2012!
save the date people!;p

Going Back Malaysia For Aidilfitri

hello people,

im going back malaysia for this coming Aidilfitri! yeyy! cant wait! it was a spontaneous decision actually.
before this tak penah bgtau my parents pon pasal cuti seminggu for raya. then petang tadi tergerak hati nak bgtau. trus my mom ty date, dia nk beli kan tiket.weeee!!
walaupon i have upcoming exams after raya, but still raya is once a year, so peluang nak beraya bersama family tak boleh dilepaskan.hehehe. lagipon mana la tau kan, this is my last raya as single lady. pasni nak beraya dengan suami dah.eh?hehehe.;p

lagi 3 weeks balik malaysia!!yeyy!

Why Haagen Dazs Ice Cream MAHAL Sangat??

hyeeooo people!

So last week, me and nadiot decided nak pergi 1MG mall to try out the infamous Haagen Dazs ice cream. yups sedih kan sebelom ni masing2 tak penah try ice cream ni sebab tak kuasa nak beli ice cream mahal2 kat malaysia.hehe.padahal sebenarnya kami ada exam paediatric the next week tu, tapi sanggup je kan keluar that weekend. ;p. Before pergi 1MG mall, kitrg singgah ke Splash. nadiot nak shopping. memandangkan now musim sale, memang seronok habis makcik ni duk shopping.haha. nasib sy boleh tahan nafsu, tak dela shopping sangat. beli sehelai baju jek. tu pon discount.tehee. (padahal ko dah shopping banyak sebelum ni kan??tskk)

then lunch di matteo before gerak ke 1MG mall by metro. this was our second time try out metro di india. not bad, ala2 LRT malaysia. yang bagus nya metro india ni tak crowded macam LRT malaysia. perhaps org india tak reti guna lagi kot.huhu.

owh ya,lupa crita pasal ice cream! so we try out the ice cream, satu scoop 200rs! gila mahai..zzz..dahla tak banyak perisa sangat. sy try mango ice cream, ok la rasa dia.masam sgt.huhu. tapi sy lagi prefer baskin robbin or swensen. at least lagi banyak choice of ice cream and harga tak mahal sgt. kalau convert harga icecream haagen dazs kitrg makan aritu, dekat rm25 gak for 2 scoops.haiyooo..mahai mahai..

me and nadiot while waiting for the metro

first time pakai maxi okeyhh.hakhak. ni pon beli kat Splash with discount.yey.

nadiot with her shopping bagsss.

ok sebenarnye tgh stdy,camna leh update blog ni??okeyh bye nak tido!sok our first day of obg posting, LAST obg posting.

till then,byeee!

Jealousy, is it good or bad?

do u often get jealous when somebody talks to your partner, or joking around with him?
is it because you love them that u get jealous? or is it because you dont trust them and feel insecure?

i know guys tend to feel anoyed kalau kita asyik nak jealous memanjang. but why?because they will interpret our jealousy as not trusting them! but i guess its true, we feel jealous sbb kita takut our partner 'tersuka' orang lain, or 'terselesa' berkawan dengan org lain which eventually terjadi la kisah kayu 3,4,5..etc.. tapi why must this feelings ada in the first place?

for me, i do get jealous sometimes, like once in a while. but then, slowly those feelings menghilang, sebab ape? because i trust him so much! and i know him to the core, and i know he wouldn't do things to hurt me. for example, ada org nak berkenalan with him. first thing he did was, he will tell me yg ada org nk menggedik with him.haha. yes, he is that jujur. and second thing, i knoww that nazmi will not layan that girl, why?because i trust him. simple as that. no explanation needed. then how do you think we survived this long distance relationship for years if its not because of trust?

besides, nazmi is not like those guys yang bila ada gf jauh2, berlagak macam single. bila org tanya dah ada gf?mengaku tak de so that saham tak jatuh.(pfft..ckup annoying lelaki macam tu)..no, he is not like that. even masa dekat kolej pon, all of his classmates tahu the gf is in india. lagi satu, kenapa sy nk jealous?? amboi nak perasan my bf ni hensem sgt ke? di gilai ramai ke sampai nak rasa jealous bagai?haha..

but sometimes, i cant help it. that jealous feelings tetap ada kadang2. but its not because i dont trust him, nooo..its just that i dont like it if perempuan lain menggedik2 with him. biarla sy sorng jek yang dia layan, jangan nak mengada layan perempuan lain. bukan tak percaya kan dia, just tak suka. thats it! so guys need to understand this. we cant control our feelings, its not like we ask for being like this. guys must understand that girls are sensitive human being. especially if it involves the person that we love most.( and also especially if time pms, goshh..buat salah skit mmg silap la. terus semua perasaan tak best timbul).

so yeah, my point is girls must stop being unnecessarily jealous towards your partner, and men also should stop doing things yg boleh menimbulkan jealous seperti melayan perempuan lain. ape, tak penat ke layan sorang perempuan,ni nak layan banyak2 perempuan lagi kan?hehe..

thats all my mumble rumble this morning. til then,bye.

Girls Day Out With Fav Girlfriends

hello hello people!

so last week me and my friends keluar ke orion Mall,mall baru di Bangalore ni.
well tak de la baru sangat, tapi baru la jugak and masing2 pon tak pernah pegi lagi. we went there hari sabtu after class,padahal next week nya ada exam medicine practical.hehe.

niat mulia bila kluar aritu just tuk spend masa sama2 and jalan2 cuci mata jek. dah berjanji dah dengan diri sendiri tak boleh shopping sebab i need to start saving. tapiii, niat tak tercapai! aritu i jumpa this high heels yang cantik sangat. tak boleh nak resist. i was so tempted nak beli. siap tunjuk gambar kat my parents and diorng pon cakap cantik and suruh beli.so apa lagi,dah dapat kebenaran terus beli!haha..walaupon agak mahal,tapi worth it!

me with sheilala, baz, ira n nadiot.

motif? hehe..ni tengah makan dessert at tuscano. nyums!

sebenarnya malas nak uplode gambar banyak2 sangat pon.
kalau nak tengok macam mana mall di india, tengok je la video bawah ni.haha. but let me warn you, excuse our gedikness.;p





ok bye!;p

Sesi Bersama Ustaz Akif Kuding

Hello people!

Hari ni i wanna talk about my youngest brother, Akif. Tatau la kenapa sy rarely talk about him padahal dia la kesayangan intan payungku. ewah exaggerate plak, but seriously, macam tak penah jek cakap pasal dia. except in this post . ekeke.

gosh i miss this budak kecik more noww! he has grown up so much since the last time i saw him. more matured and more responsible. he is just 12 years old tapi kalau bab pelajaran mmg he takes it seriously. dia blaja lagi tekun than me yg ambik medic ni.haha. my parents sampai risau tgk dia blaja kuat sgt. he is so competitive that he wants to be the top in EVERYTHING. well at least dia mmg top of his class. Did i mention my bro also main chess for trg? yes, dia wakil trg for chess under 12. and baru last week dia menang johan junior master chess. me so proud of him.mmuackxx!

soo, arini i wanna show to you my baby bro! this is just a random spontaneous video we did. akif was like, 'kakya, ambik video akif. akif nak jadi ustaz'. me, apa lagi, of coz!haha.

isi kandungan tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau mati.;p

that day dia sedih2 told me nanti if i get married, dia dah xleh tido with me dah..haha..sedih plak dgr..xpe adik,kakya still akan tido ngn adik bila2 jek,promise!hikk...

aaaaa rindu budak kecik tembam pipi pau ni!!;-(

till then, taaa!

Are You Ready To Be A Parent?

 

Before u read this, jgn assume anything yet. not im not pregnant,  not even married yet. haha. tapi terbaca this post from a blog and i found it so funny. so yeah...

Below you will find some simple tests to prepare you for the real thing.

1. Your wife can prepare like this: she can put on a wide dress and put a big bag of rice down the front. She should leave it there for 9 months. After the 9 months, take out 10% of the rice. For you as a future father: Go to your local drugstore and empty your wallet on the counter. Tell the cashier to take what she wants. Then go to the supermarket and arrange for your entire monthly salary to be paid directly to their head office. Go home and read your newspaper for the last time…
2. Before you finally go ahead to have a baby, find a couple who are already parents and advise them about their method of discipline, their lack of patience and low tolerance levels and how they allow their children to run around screaming. Give them specific suggestions on how to improve their children's behavior. Enjoy this moment…it is the last time in your life that you will have all the answers.
3. If you want to feel what it is like for a mother to have the ‘night shift’: walk around in your living hall from 5pm to 10pm while you carry a wet bag weighing 3-5 kg. At 10pm put the bag down, set the alarm for midnight and go to sleep.Get up at midnight and walk around in the living hall again, carrying the bag, of course, until 1am. Put on the alarm for 3 am. Since you can’t go back to sleep, get up at 2am and make yourself a hot drink. Go back to bed at 2.45am. Get up at 3am when your alarm goes off. Pick up your wet bag and sing songs in the dark until 4am. Put on the alarm for 5am for your partner to wake up. Get up. Make breakfast and keep all of this up for 5 years. Oh yes, look happy.
4. Are you sensitive about the mess children can make? Find out now: smudge peanut butter on your sofa and jam onto the curtains. Hide a fish stick behind the stereo and leave it there for a month. Stick your fingers in your garden’s soil and rub them on the clean walls. To cover the stains: use crayons. Nice?
5. Take an egg box, use a pair of scissors and a can of paint and turn it into an alligator. Next, take a toilet paper tube. Use only sticky tape and some aluminum foil and turn it into a palm tree. Last but not least, take a milk pack, a ping pong ball and an empty Corn Flakes box and make an exact replica of the Petronas Towers. Did you manage? Congratulations! You are now qualified for a place on the Kindergarten committee.
6. Forget the Lotus and buy a family wagon. By the way, don’t think you can drive off in a clean and shiny car. Family cars don’t look like this. Get a chocolate ice cream and put it in the glove compartment. Leave it there. Get a 20 sen coin, stick it in the cassette or CD player. Buy a big bag of chocolate cookies and crumble them on the back seats. Finally. Run a garden shovel up and down the sides of your car. Ready you are!
7. Get ready to go out. Wait outside the toilet for half an hour. Go out the front door. Come in again. Go out. Come back in. Go out again. Walk down the front path. Walk back up it again. Walk down it again. Walk very slowly down the road for 5 minutes. Stop to inspect minutely every cigarette butt, piece of used chewing gum, dirty tissue, and dead insect along the way. Retrace your steps. Scream that you’ve had as much as you can stand until all of the neighbors come out and stare at you. Give up and go back in the house. You are now just about ready to try taking a small child for a walk.
8. Always repeat everything you say at least five times.
9. Go to your local supermarket. Take with you the nearest thing you can find to a kindergarten child. A fully grown goat is excellent. If you intent to have more than one child, take more than one goat. Buy your weeks groceries without letting the goats out of your sight. Pay for everything the goats eat or destroy. Until you can easily accomplish this DO NOT even contemplate having children.
10. Hollow out a melon. Make a small hole in the side. Suspend it from the ceiling and swing it from side to side. Now get a bowl of soggy Corn Flakes and try to spoon it into the swaying melon by pretending to be an airplane. Continue until half of the Corn Flakes are gone. Tip the rest into your lap, making sure that a lot of it falls on the floor. You are now ready to feed a 12 month old child.
11. Learn the names of every character from Barney and Friends and Sesame Street and Disney. When you find yourself singing, “I love you, you love me” at work, then you finally qualify as a parent!

so good luck mom to be out there!lol.

A Women's Dream

something that i always tell nazmi.hakhak!

my doctor once said, if you want to witness how do man gives birth, go to orthopaedic department. ;p

Taking videos

hello dear blog,

harini saya kebosanan. okeyh, sepatutnya tak bosan sebab sepatutnya busy menyiapkan slides for my seminar.zzzzzz. but now saya dah siap my seminar and i've been wasting my time dari tadi duk tengok videos2 in youtube.

and tiba2 terasa macam nak buat video banyak banyak! like an everyday video about my life.chewah. sebab macam best jek ada video kan? nanti bila dah tua2 then boleh tengok balik semua videos2 tu.hehe. tapi nak ambik video tiap2 hari di india ni memang tak de masa la kan. sibuk pergi kelas and all.

so i have decided nanti balik malaysia, saya nak ambik banyak2 videos especially when kuar dating with nazmi.yey! it doesnt matter whether that videos about our activities, or about 'boyfriend tag' or 'question and answer tag' macam kat youtube tu. if you dont know what i mean, pegi search di youtube now. yup, thats what im going to do nanti. cant wait!yey.

and nanti after kawen pon, or bila dah ada anak pon, saya nak ambik video everyday so that boleh jadi kenangan sampai bila2. ala2 macam video diaries cmtu. best nye!

so that is my new ermm hobby?hhahaa..i dont know what to call it, but yeah, cant wait to go back to malaysia and ambik byk2 videos with nazmi.

if saya rajin, i'll post it here. if not, biarla jadi kenangan sendiri2 jek.tehee..

till then, bye2.

after 2 months

holla dear blog,

ketemu lagi kita ye. lama gila x update pasal my life. nothing much pon, same ol same ol. now im in emergency posting. tiap hari duk kat casualty. tp this week macam xde apa sgt, patient pon tak ramai, except tdi when a man came with cardiac arrest. then after resuscitate pon still xberjaya and he died. guess what, it is suicide. dia hanged himself. sbb ape pon tatau. biasala org local sini, threshold nak bunuh diri tu sangat rendah.haih.. ah tiba2 teringat muda laki tadi.urghh, xskeee.huhu.

owh ya, tadi i took hpv vaccine shot.tehee. sebab cost for hpv vaccine sini sangat murah compared to malaysia. if kat malaysia, dalam rm300 per shot, kat sini lebih kurang rm 100 only. so baik buat kat sini kannn. lagipon vaccine ni tahan for 30 years!bagus2..but now sakit tangann. adusss. nak angkat tangan pon tak boleh. nak gerak2 tak boleh. rasa macam contraction lebih kat tangan ni.huhuhu.sabar jelaaa...

other than that, im counting days untuk balik malaysia.weee!another 4 weeks. tatau la kenapa this time rasa sangat2 tak sabar nak jumpa nazmi.hihi. dah lama start countsown nak balik tau. sejak 2-3 bulan lepas dah. sangat sangat tak sabar please. gosh to think that this is my last holiday before my final mbbs exam sangat menakutkan. haishh. btw, my 2 good friends emma n ilot dh selamat jadi doc! diorng dah pass their final exam.so proud of them!jelus pon ada.hahaa.takpe nirna, sabarr. your time will come soooon!yang penting belajar rajin2 dulu.hukk.

its me and him masa our engagement day.;-)

Last birthday in India

So today is my birthday, and hopefully its my last birthday celebration in india!yey! Grateful to have my friends celebrating my birthday here.love much!

Ps- someone x wish lgi my birthdayyyy. Sobs. Patut marah ke tak?huhu

its sushi time! (trip to shiro, UBcity)

hello !

yesterday me and friends pegi melantak sushi kat Shiro, ub city. Memang kalau tiap kali craving for sushi, kitrng akan pegi shiro coz ada buffet! so boleh makan byk2 sampai ko muntah.

the dishes include sushi, maki, dimsum, and my favorite chicken pau! u can keep on ordering everything until u rasa dah xlarat nak sumbat perut tu.kekeke.

however the cost is quite pricey, if converted into ringgit malaysia, around rm80 for each person. so xde la nak pegi selalu kann, just bila terasa nak sgt sushi and bila duit allowance dah masuk!;p

so here are few pictures of our trip.

dalam auto on the way to UBcity.

with ma bestfren nadiot, and roomate,dyanah.

tengah kebosanan tunggu makanan. abg waiter ni tak pandai ambik gambar laa..zzzz

nom nom nom!makan puas2!

muka gembira bobo makan sushi.LOL

dah puas melantak, sesi photography plak.tehee..

macam ni la rupa auto india!

on the way back home. muka kekenyangan.;p

happy dpt makan sushi.;D

short video trip to shiro.;p.

till we meet again.

taaa!

you, me, and our future.

talking about future scares me. i am freaking out. i dont know what the future holds for us. yes, i am going to get married one day, with him. but then, after that?

how about having kids?nope, im not ready yet. i cant imagine myself having kids. first of all, i dont know if i can go through the hardship and pain enduring delivery process. silly me for talking about this, but u cant blame me for having the trauma, after being posted in OBG department few times. i am not joking, i am scared.:-/.. and, am i capable to raise a child? dang...im a child myself. i will cry if i dont get what i want. in fact, i just cried yesterday talking to my parents coz they wont allow me to go back to malaysia. see...T.T

how about work? yes im going to grad, with God's willing, end of next year. and i am going to finish my housemanship MAYBE at hbnz (hospital besar nur zahirah) along with nazmi. btw, nazmi has started his job in the same hospital. houseman ship for 2 years, then MO,and after that?

last night, nazmi and i were talking about the future. and we end up with argumentssss. well, not arguments as in raising voice or what so ever. but, there are few things we could not agreed with each other.

for example, nazmi planned nak bukak business. ok fine, itu mmg his planning dari dlu lagi and i am ok with it. pegila buka businesss, tapi nazmi bagitau kalau one of us nak keluar government, then salah sorang kena stay in government. and in my case, if dia yg plan nak bukak business, its me la yg kena stay in government. but the thing is, i have my own planning. i want to open my own private clinic, insyaAllah. so camna now? ok la fine, my planning to mmg la sekadar impian semata jek, and nazmi plak mmg dah betul2 planning nak bukak biz, so sy la yg kena berkorban and stay jek in government. ok fine, i dont mind that.

but then, comes another problem. he told me, i need to do specialist. huaa...sobs...i dont feel like doing any specialist dah in future. i dont feel like pursuing study anymore. cukup2 la penat and kemalasan study now,tak boleh ke just jadi doctor biasa? yes i know, silly me sbab apa yang nazmi suruh tu for my own good,dia cakap takkan sy nak kerja teruk2 jd MO jek, at least buat specialist tu tak de la kerja teruk sgt, yeke? but..sigh...tak nak tak nak tak nak.....hukkkk...and he is serious about it! and i am being stubborn, i noe thattt.wekx.

so i said, ok fine kalau nak suh wat specialist, nak buat kat overseas jugak. UK ke, Aussie ke, mana2 la. and i told nazmi to come along with me,tapi nazmi pulak ckp, kalau wat kat sana, dia nak buat apa?dh la dia nak bukak biz..huuu..aduyai..masalah lagi..so now kena tukar planning, KALAU nk buat specialist, sy kena pilih local U jek. and my impian nak g UK study sana??nampaknya terkubur je la impian tu. nazmi cakap kalau sy nak sgt pgi UK, xpela, dia promise nnti dia bawak pegi jalan2 sana kalau ada rezeki. hey u better keep your promise ok??!!hukk...sedih..

haih...

sebenarnya susah nya nak planning future. lebih2 lagi kalau planning future keluarga cmni. and we did talked like a married couple.;p. dia ckp skrg apa2 planning dia, dia kena fikir pasal me. thats why sme yg dia ckp tu, sme untuk kebaikan kitrng.huhuhu...orang lain macam ni tak? any married couple out there yg ada masalah camni tak?haha..or it is just me yang being selfish and stubborn now?huuuuu

p/s - but today,after pikir2 balik apa yang kitrng borak smlm, sy sedar sme yg dia ckp tu tuk kebaikan kami. meybe smlm was just a bad day and bad timing for him to bring up the subject, after me being devastated sbb my parents tak kasi balik mesia. huhu. ;p..tapi apa yg kitrng borakkan smlm is something big, and i need to think carefully about it.

p/s/s- tiba2 takut nak kawen. gosh, nanti in future mesti lagi banyak masalah akan datang. mampu kah sy menghadapi sme ni?wakaka. but serious ly, married life is not something simple. there's lot more responsibilities and problems and are we matured enough to handle that together?

p/s/s/s- one sentence i remembered him saying it last night, after all the arguments and me being stubborn..' walau apa pon terjadi, susah cmna pon hidup kita akan dtg, org nak awak ingt yg org akan sentiasa ada dgn awak'..thanks awak..;-(

Conversation with the parents

My dad and i were talking bout nazmi starting his job, when i randomly told him my nazmi is the most handsome man in the world. haha. yup, im quite open with my parents and we can casually talk almost about anything. then out of sudden my dad asked me

me: nazmi pling hensemm skali dlm duniaaa.;p

baba: elehhh, sapa lagi hensem, baba ke nazmi?;p

me: ok la, baba no 1 paling hensem!

baba: hehe..sapa lagi hensem baba ke akif ke ajat?

doink..malas nk layan.hahahaha. my dad can be funny but annoying sometimes too.;p

conversation with mama lak lain cerita. that day, sy tanya mama pasal masak2..

me: mama,kenapa kan kalau goreng ayam mesti nak letup2?takut ya nak goreng ayam

mama: eh napa letup2?jaga2 muka tuuuuu. kang kena muka parut lak!!

lol my mom..bukan nak jawab my question, instead risau pasal parut. mom will always be mom right?

and the other day, my mom suddenly asked me this question

mama: cincin tunang tu still ada tak?ke dah hilang mana2?

eeeee, tau la org ni carelesss, tak perlu nak perli lebih2..lol

aish, rinduuuuuuu my parents so much! rasa cm homesick, nak balik malaysia over the weekend boleh?huuuuuu....

till death do us part

sweetest picture!

jom?;p